
Monday, November 30, 2009
You know sometimes when the group gets too big,
your left behind but nobody notices.
you try your best to run and catch up with them but they just dont acknowledge you..
its super tiring like this..
i know u all are concerned about this and that but,
u ask me if there is a misunderstanding between us..
I myself would obviously say.. No..
isnt that a normal reaction?
You said i didnt help out,
but when i did,
Did you even see it?
You claim you know when we are helping out..but,
all u do is go according to what u see with your own eyes..
stop acting kind u know?
i'd rather u say anything you wanna say to me than tell me all those sacarstic remarks..
you know whenever i see you i have a very scared feeling?
Its like seeing you all can bring my mood down, like a weight..
its not that i dont like you guys..
i know everyone has their pros and cons..
but, i am not sure if u have ever seen mine..
like you all dont understand me at all..
Seriously,
have u ever considered
MY feelings when you said all those words..
I mean,
when u wanna give ur all,
and try ur best,
the next thing you know,
somebody says ur just like a follower,
there's no diff even if i am in or out of the group..
Fine then..Seriously..
i have nth to say LOL..
i'm just saying what and how i feel.. you know? i am a human being, i have emotions too..
after u all talked to me,
i teared on the way down the stairs..
But yeah,
again,
nobody saw..
why?
cuz it was at night..
and gd for me,
i can continue tearing..
and the next day pretend nothing happened at all..
yeah,
i can do that
but i
have been asking myself..
have i really tried my best?
after the incident my mood hasnt been very good..
yea,
but i managed to get a hold of myself.
and control the emotion inside me..
Seriously,
never judge a book by its cover.
i know i am at fault too,
but if u seriously think about it,
Do you have a part to play too?
That's it..
Gonna sleep now..
nights..
♥our lips must always be sealed
11:52 PM